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[ACJ]

Two years, 4 months,one week and one and three quarter hours. That's how long it is since H left. So why then is he the first thing I think of when I wake up, when I leave work to come home and the last thing I think of before I go to sleep at night. I only ever used to phone H to say I was on my way home if I had been working late or if he was waiting to go out himself. Since he left I have (for some unknown reason) wanted to call him everyday to let him know I am on my way home. Why?????????????

I'm going insane with this. I actually want to have a whole day where I don't think of him but it hasn't yet happened. I've even tried not coming here for a few days in the hope that it will lessen how much I think of him. It did not work.

He isn't nice to me, he has made no attempts to come home or even to make me think that he might. He is only interested in the big ole D train. He puts OW first EVERY SINGLE TIME. As things look he isn't even going to come to our D17s 18th birthday party. How does a man like that still command my every waking minute?

Vent over