Oh boy, grumpyeby. You've been through more sh!t than anyone deserves. I don't think this is payback for your past life mistakes. You seem very strong and balanced. You deserve so much better. How can your H live with himself? Lord help him. You mentioned "addict" - is he currently addicted? I'll need to go review your other threads.
I'm sending some virtual support and strength your way... hang in there.
M: 37 H: 36 Married: Aug 13, 2004 Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008 Reconciled: September 2008 Current: Ambivalence