Yes marriages are public records, I could only find ours in Dade County. If they were married in Peurto Rico....thats a task and I really don't want to dig that far. It is none of my business, and although it hurts....I'm too tired to care. I don't absolutely need to know either.

I know I heard that he was married, that his Aunties were talking about his wedding. Does this mean he married her, not unless I see it in writing. Nor does it mean he married her for love, maybe she needed a green card? I could go on and on and give many endless possibilites, but again I'm too tired.

Yes, your right Jack. I know the answers, I'm trying to get over feeling bad if I have to make drastic decisions. I am still going to do my best to be nice, I have no desire to be anything but fair concerning what he wanted. Neither can I not stand my ground anymore. His consequences for what he wanted should not be mine.

Either way I go, I am the bad person in the end. Thats if I let him make me feel that way.

His battles are not mine. Mine are not his. But they are still tied together in some form or the other.

I need to break the cycle that keeps it this way. When the cycle is broken then I can move forward.

I need to move forward Jack. With or without him.

IFhe feels like talking about his frustrtations, I will listen, I will be polite, but I really don't think I want to hear them. Sorry if this seems harsh, but he's not concerned about mine, I do not talk to him about mine. Hell he is my frustration! His Dr. Jekyll Mr. Hyde is starting to weird me out and it's contagious!!!!! I'm trying not to catch it

I may never know all the answers, I may never understand it, but I WILL find a life after this one has ended. I WILL move forward, I WILL be happy again. That is the only thing I can control. Me.

Thanks for lettimg me talk this out.....it helps!

luv ya li'l bro!

Jeanette

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