Haven't gone through all five pages but wanted to lend an ear. I know that feeling, about not quite knowing who this person is anymore. And how did we spend so much of our lives with this complete stranger. And it's all over, so why continue to lie?
The only part we differ on is the band aid vs permanent. I want him to move on with his life so he doesn't think that reconciliation is an option. I feel like me being alone though, will always leave that thought in his head. Funny thing is from my perspective, I think he still thinks we're friends. Umm, no.
So smooches Chica - it's shoe shopping time and I completely agree - where IS spring? I've been willing it with a few strappy shoes or capris
Smooches!
P.S. You are blessed that he's spending time with the kiddos. I continue to be amazed at my X's selfishness. He lives literally five minutes ?!?! from Peanut and tends to keep the 4 days a month visitation, with an extra day sprinkled in at will. I don't get it. She is so cool and I can't imagine not wanting to spend as much time with her as I could...
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
know that feeling, about not quite knowing who this person is anymore. And how did we spend so much of our lives with this complete stranger. And it's all over, so why continue to lie?
Hee hee, totally.
But i have to say, I don't think it was all a lie, this my new way of thinking. I believed that when Javier loved me he did so very much. He just loves me a different way now.
but i hear ya
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So smooches Chica - it's shoe shopping time
I KNOW! I have my eyes on these babies at 9 west.
But trying to budget, surely, God knows i don't like to budget, but trying to be an adult. blech
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P.S. You are blessed that he's spending time with the kiddos.
I know, sigh, I really need to just focus on the blessings. He is trying to be a great dad, in his own way, bless his heart.
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I don't get it. She is so cool and I can't imagine not wanting to spend as much time with her as I could...
Ugh, I just hate to hear this. I know peanut is super cool. I don't see why they just don't get it, JESSSSSSSSSSUS don't hurt the kids just get it already.
I had dinner last night with my xmil, and the kids and javier.
yeah, I know 2 years later who would of thought it.
Sooo, Javier has been offered a new job that he is going to take. He was talking at the table and he said, you have no idea, how i was before taking this job. And I was like Um
yeah I bet you were like this, and this and this. He said EXACTLY.
Um 15 years with a person, you just don't forget the quirks.
soooo, I said congratulations and punched him in the arm. It is how i roll with him
and he just laughs and said, i hate that you punch harder than me
Soooo, i go outside with my xmil, and she starts jumping up and down and saying he is not gonna work with the whore, he is not going to work with the whore.
I was like OMG shut it. It was soo funny, then Javier comes outside, and we both shut up, and he was like Why are you giggling.
I said Nothing, gosh.
hee hee
Ok off to Tango!
Last edited by Lissie; 04/02/0804:59 PM.
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