I made the mistake of "bleeding emotionally" to a lot of my friends and most of my family. Some have been supportive of me wanting to save M but most are telling me to move on and find someone new.
Unfortunatley W now feels that I've "poisoned" these people against her. This may be another road block in our recovery. Even though my family have all said that they want us to get back together - I can't help to feel that they will be harboring some ill will toward W if we ever do reconcile.
I think that what really gets to the W about all of this is that for all of our 16yrs of marriage I've always said our problems were our problems- they stay under our roof and we fix them. It's no one else's business what our business is. But when she dropped the bomb on me I was reeling so hard the I "bled" all over the place and tried to find emotional support from friends and family. I realize now - although maybe too late- that I shouldn't have done that. I should have tried to carry the burden a little better and weathered the storm the best I could by myself and use the counselor to vent. I can't take back what I've done or said to these people and I'll have to live with that.I just hope that one day W will forgive me for airing our dirty laundry and allow me back in her life.
