Well, I need support right now. I made a mistake and went to see a friend this afternoon. My afternoon was a nightmare! Went to visit with an old friend. One thing I found out is that H OW is hated in the deer hunting place. All the guys want to kill her. I think they are working on getting her as. kicked out during deer hunting season. And H will be banded from fishing in a pond if he trys to take OW there. She is unwanted!NO one I have talked to likes her, hate is closer to it. But, the friend of mine tried to pound it into me to move on, not stay with H. I ended up crying my head off and I'm in the deepest depression ever, maybe I'm wrong; no hope, bleak. I'm tired of hearing that life can be better, I was even told to move far away. That H made his choice a long time ago;OW. I don't know what I want at this minute. Maybe H is being nice to get what he wants...just like she said. She said he deserves what he gets. That he is not the same man I loved and that I should think of that paerson as dead. Maybe this DB and DR is a bunch of bull. That we should all move on. Guess I made a mistake; I should of stayed home! My heart is in my stomach and i feel pretty hopeless, I don't want to move on unless H comes out and says he never wants to make M work. What's the use, that's probably why I didn't want to tell H that I wanted our M to work, I knew that when he answered it whould be the end forever. So right now I will wallow in my misery. When there is no hope, there is no reason for living a happy life.
Sounds pretty down, yes it is, this friend was not encouraging at all. Move on, move out. I need someone to tell me to try and save this M. I'm falling down the black hole of he.. Please send a floaty, a rope. Better yet, I'd like someone to send me the dreams of a brighter future that I just left behind and will probably never have. Help! I'm falling...
