my story adventures of a WAW!

[christarn]

B,
Time, time is what started to turn me around. It's kind of strange but after 4 months, I just honestly missed my H. I missed him sooooo much. I heard my friends talking about him, my best friend whom I work with, her H is my H's best friend. so she kept me up to date on the H, then my sister saw my H, then somebody else saw him....he bought a harley...that's when it really hit me. I started to think of what my dad always told me, drinking and harley's don't mix. my dad had a HD, used to take me rides...how I miss that! So slowly, I started to think of everything my H and I been thru. He helped me thru two of the most difficult times in my life, the deaths of both my parents (2 1/2 yrs apart..both of them cancer). I also thought he is the only man I could ever have children with that knew my parents, and could help me pass on memories of the grandparents they would never know. So pretty much, after a little over 4 months of me being gone and a D being filed, the D was put on hold, and I am where I am today.

I to will stand for my M. However, I do believe, I need a solid R with my H, before our M could even begin to be revived. What I mean by that, is this....Being seperated for 14 months now, I would like a chance to start with a friendship, to build up a trust that has been lost, then work our back towards our M. But I feel first and foremost, the foundation of a great friendship, must be there. And I think/feel, that he's a little uncomfortable right now about R/M talks, so why not start out slow and easy, hang out get to know each other again, and go from there.

I truly and firmly believe God had us stop the D proceedings for a reason. I know my H, is reluctant, but I am not the mean angry monster I was when I left, I would just like to be afforded the chance to show him!

I will be praying your W's mean angry monster dissapates soon, and she finds happiness within herself. Patience is key. Stay focused, busy, take time out for yourself. It's key.

hugs
Christa