I guess I also want to say that I give up. I give up hoping for change from her. I am powerless to change any of this. Everything she does hurts me and I know that I've been forgiven for my mistakes. I just give up.
I see the next year ahead as a road that will forge a new 'me' out of the old one. I know in the end I'll be better for it. Just going to see where God takes me.
