I think it might be time........

[HOPEFULinCALI]

Mo2C,

A few last thoughts. Know that I only say these things b/c, although I don't know you, I truly care. None of us wish this pain on anyone else.

Hope - i do want to find that happiness within myself. I think that what i need is a break to find that. i have always done what others expected, wanted, etc. I have never really been myself.

I said the same thing to myself. I just need to find myself, discover what I want, heal myself and become a better person/wife, go now before we end up fighting endlessly......
Like I have said you have the power of information (see Michele's "change your life and everyone in it") and I hope you do find yourself. You most definitely don't want to lose yourself or you can't give back to anyone else.

HFF and i just had a really good conversation about ALL of this. I feel better, i think he does too. I still believe that taking a break will do us both some good. HFF is not furious with me, he understands (though doesn't necessarily agree with) where i am coming from. If it is going to happen, then now is the time to do it. This is hard to explain but i feel if i don't do it now under these seemingly "ok" situations (not really ok but not at all volatile) i will always think - what if.

As did H and I. After several conversations I helped H to feel comfortable with what I was doing, in fact he helped me move to my new place. I'm not saying sep is right or wrong and having been there I can understand that you think it is. I hope that you are one of the lucky one's. Christa had some great advice. Please consider all the WAW's we have been there and felt what you are feeling to a degree. I wish you nothing but the best and if you do sep please don't put your M on the backburner. You can make yourself and your M a priority.

Hugs