I think it might be time........

[christarn]

Mo2c....How many times a day do we all think "what if?" I am a RN at a hospital, today I had a patient Code for 40 minutes, yes CPR/Defibrillating the whole 9 yards for 40 minutes, and I have asked my self repeatidly today "What if, I had done this, or that, or the other" The thing is, we as humans always question ourselves and our judgment, it is what makes us human. As someone once said "To error is to be human"

I wonder everyday what my life would be like had I not left my H. Would I have a child by now? Or would we still be fighting...either way, if I could change what I did, I never ever in a million years would choose to leave. And I would like you to look at everything you have inside your home, and think about it for a good long while before you do make your decision...because you may never get it back. And that is a very hard reality. Once you walk out, there is no turning back, no turning back the clock, what is done...is done. Your children will have to live with the decisions you make, and so will you, as well as your S. That's a total of 4 people, who will all have feelings, emotions, and physical side effects of this decision also. Thinking one can leave for a few months, and their spouse will be like "oh honey come back home, I welcome you with loving arms," is a false presumption.

I don't want you to think I am being harsh. I just truly want you to think about the decision you are going to make not only for you, but for your H and your children, before you make it. There are a ton of great resources out there to help build up troubled R/M's all one has to do is want it...and it's available.

I know there are more than a few of us WAW's on these boards that would do anything to get our S's back. And there are also LBS's who wish there S would have never left. I'm just wanting you to think before you act. And look inside yourself and see who or what you are really angry with. Sometimes the answeres are within ourselves.

Take care,
Christa