H spoke with my best friend today (they went to high school together and are also friends) Said he told OW it was over and things couldnt work. H also told friend there is a war going on btw them now! Sounds like things are starting to get messy now, at least I hope so!!!
I am praying this is my chance to be as sweet as I possibly can! Make him realize this is where he wants to be. H also told my friend that he wants back with me is just still so afraid things wont work out. I have to show him they can and they will. I guess this is my time to DB like crazy. I know I need to step it up right now so he wants to be around "his family" now and not OW. I pray every day that things will work out and I really really hope this is a good sign and H can stick with it. I dont want to set myself up for failure but there have been some signs of impovement and I hope relationship with OW is coming to an end, for good!
I try to remind myself of my goal everyday so I dont loose sight of what's important. I know there will be alot of time later to talk about what has happened and I need to learn to let it go. Mostly I need to stop snooping. I still look at his cell phone bills every month and today I listened to his voice mail. I am so ashamed that I do these things and all it does is upset me. OW left message saying how much she loves MY H, and asking him to please come home tonight. Kept going on and on about "coming home" I really want to be like Bi**h his home is certainly not with you. I dont understand how those people (OW OR OM) can look at themselves in the mirror and feel good about who they are. they are just so unbeliable.....
