Just took d to emergency room because she scratched her legs so badly they were raw. Before we went to hospital I phoned h and he came with. Later he says I gave him a certain look which I may have but I apologized to him straight away. This went into a downward spiral. When we got home he said he was leaving and was not coming up and I said fine and did give him a look. He asked what the look was for and I said that he would not even walk us to the door!
Then he went for it.....In hospital i kept on saying I not we. He says I should have said we and I replied but we are not a we and I was just retelling the event as it happened....he said you could lie you know...I made him feel useless, then he said and you fought with me earlier... then it came...this is what I am leaving! Ton of bricks thrown at me!!!
He kept on saying he had to go and making a fuss about work and I said if we were a family we would do this together.
Of course I replied you only see the negative. Then came 100 apologies to him and telling him how sorry i am that he feels that way. I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE! my heart is breaking into a thousand pieces over and over again. I did GAL but this holding on to somenthing that is not there is killing me. He goes home and gets into bed with his ow, he plays wife with her and he has no intentions of coming back. I love him to bits but he is being so horrible and he truely only sees me as bad. He sets me up for failure again and again. He makes it clear he is there for d only, and reminded me that she has his DNA. He truely hates me and I keep on going back for more!
