Lori thats how I feel too but I also know that a D isn't necessarily the end either.
If you still want to fignt for your M them you'll have to DB but also let him think/know that you're moving on without telling him so. It seems that the further many people on this site got from the M the more likely the S was to return. Some sort of reverse psychology. It's mind bogling but I have faith in the "system"
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*