I don't mean to sound like a fool or seem to come off as needing positive reinforcement, but I do feel so worried that by pulling back and letting go .....he will be gone for good. I know it is in God's hands, but it really scares me.
Yesterday, H called early. I told him that I was taking s16 to his swim banquet and if he would like to spend time with d13 we would be gone from 5-8. He said that he would stay with her and take her to see his folks. I made it short and sweet and got off the phone.
When s16 and I got back last night, H was up with d13. S16 was not happy to see him, went in his room to put some things away, and slammed the door. H....bolted shortly after. Barely said a word to me. I thanked him for hanging with her and that was it. He looked tired.
When i woke up this morning I rolled over and there on the side of the bed was a set of grocery store key tags on a ring. I looked and they weren't mine, so I asked d13 if they were H's and she said yes, he was laying down in my room yesterday. Whatever.
Anyway, bad mom that I am snooped at d13's phone this morning. She received a tm from H last night and was acting funny after it. The tm read don't forget to ask your mom. Well she hasn't asked me anything yet. Not sure what he is cooking.
I have a feeling he wants her to start staying over with him on Monday nights again, but she hated it. If she agrees, i think it will be out of guilt. It truly upset her last time.....so I will wait and see what will transpire.
Speak of the devil. H just called. Was asking where d's practice was today. I told him. He had just come from the funeral of his mom's bestfriend. He was crying. Just kept telling me how sad it was. How sad he was? I talked with him for a little bit and then he hung up. Too emotional. We shall see how it goes.
Anyway, that's that for now. I will try to stick to my boundaries without coming across too cold. I just wish something would wake this man up. It is coming on 2 years in april and I feel like we are still right where we started.
