I had hoped that if I made it to 7 threads that it would be in piecing...instead it looks like I'm on the fast track to D. And I've accepted it. I won't say that I still don't want to save my marriage, I do. But I can't do anything more. It's in the sit back and let it play out stage and I have to move forward with my life. I've accepted it....for the most part and the next month for me is going to be intense. I've got to put my house up for sale & find a new one & finalize custody negotiations. I can't do this properly if my head isn't in it and to do that I need to be fully present in the sitch and not trying to figure out if what I'm doing is making a difference or not. Having said that, I'm also hoping that being at this point is the point where so many of the success stories said they were before they finally started to see changes. But I'm also optimistic about my life without H. I can start to see a future for myself and my kids. A brighter tomorrow is possible and I can make it happen. I'm ready for it!
Nothing new to report from my last post. I'm going to be speaking to a moderator today so hopefully I can get some answers. Hope you're all having a bright today! J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out
