OK...MAJOR SLIP or TWO!!! I got back last night from a trip and I was going to page my H (this is our only way to communicate; he doesn't have a home # for me) but decided I should make sure the OW was @ work first. I went by & she was at home w/ H. This morning I checked his credit card to see where he had been this weekend (I was out of town) & got an awful shock. I KNOW I deserved it for snooping!! They had been to a "fun" store & spent $95 on who knows what!!! When my H called this morning, I asked him what type of store it was, he says he went "alone"...maybe so, but I am sure OW was ready for him when he got back!!! It just kills me!!!!! I laughed & told him I wasn't mad, just curious!! He says he loves me & misses me & wants to stay together but he is still w/ OW. We have been having wonderful conversations & he mentions moving home a lot & how much he misses me & our baby. THEN WHY IS HE STILL THERE??? CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME???? I am going on a business trip Friday & won't be back for a week, he talks about being camped out on my door step when I return. He said that these two weeks that we won't be able to see each other will be what the rest of his life is like if he doesn't get his stuff together. I want SO much to believe him, he has just lied to me so many times! I have been very encouraging & very positive, I just don't know what else to do!! I am about at my witts end & ready to file so I can get the heck out of town. He knows that when our D is final I will leave town to keep the OW & her daughters (one of her daughters is 14 & in jail, out in September - bad record) from being around my baby. That is no place for her to be & it just isn't a safe environment. OW has had numerous affairs; bringing her boyfriends (including my H) to the house while her H was still living at home. She is no role model I want around my child. It also makes me mad that she was talking about being her step mom BEFORE she was even born!!! OVER MY DEAD BODY!! She is a truly evil woman. His buddies from work have even tried to tell him how awful she is & how she is just going to ruin him like she has all the other men she has been with! She uses her job like most women use a bar - to meet men!!! All this from a Sheriff's Department employee!!! Such high standards!

I DO NOT want a D, but my patients is running out! I have never been very patient but this is eating away at me!!!