Well, no word from H since he brought the sandwich over...and cried to me. I go back and forth from feeling sorry for him to being furious at him.
I did tell him I would help him with his rent one last time. From now on he will be getting a paycheck every two weeks and will be able to do it himself. I imagine I will see him today or tomorrow to take care of that.
I will not help him with any other bills (cable, internet, credit cards, etc.)...a week or so ago I would have. It is his problem now. If he wants to be alone he can pay his bills alone. If I have to make one more car payment, then it goes up for sale. It is due towards the end of the month.
One more thing about OW's myspace and then I will drop it. Her "orientation" now says straight. Before it didn't say anything. ..So much for her being a lesbian. I just feel like such a fool that I believed him. I believed him when he told me she was a lesbian and I believed him when he said nothing was physical. Then she went and broadcasted it to family and friends. I am not sure who all saw that picture but I know somebody had to. I am sure his sister did. I wonder what OW thought when he called and told her to take it off.
I am feeling down now. I just feel like I am at the point where I need something to happen. I need us to work on things or I need a D. I don't want a D. It is the last thing I want, but I can't stay in limbo forever. I just feel so drained.
