Better late than never?

[jon2911]

Michelle,
I'm going back and reading through your sitch and the letter you sent. W says the same thing about me, that I don't know how to apologize. Maybe a letter would be good later.

She was very cool this weekend, kept saying things to try and get to me. She said there have been breakthroughs with her headaches, and she's doing well at home. I tried to stay detached. Taxes went well Saturday.

She called at 1:00 AM Sunday morning because she was having terrible nightmares. These are connected to her headaches somehow, possibly because she's in so much pain that her brain can't rest. She'll talk to her doctor about it today.

Anyway, I was able to comfort her, and she made it through the rest of the night. We talked some in the morning, and I found out the truth of what's really going on. Things have been terrible for her, and Easter morning she had nightmares, was throwing up, and had her sister and aunt watch her all night. They were freaked out, especially by her strange twitching in her leg. These are the things I tried so hard to help her through, but her family didn't believe me, and they still think it's all my fault. Even as I write this, I'm realizing this may all be for the best, that it's still happening even when I'm out of the picture.

I went to church, came back, finished taxes and fixed W's phone. I ended up staying too long, and she pulled me into some R talk. Her family still has me convinced that I'm horrible, they tried to stop her from coming to see me at all. I knew this would happen when she moved home, but it hurt nonetheless. It ended more angry than I've ever seen her, and I left.

I want so badly to help her, to take away the pain, but it's not my place right now. The stages of MLC you posted were very helpful, and I'll read those DR chapters. Recovery group tonight, and I really need it. And a motorcycle ride or something.