Deep down I think it's all my fault that he gave up on us, that's what's so hard to face.
I doubt it is all your fault. I have done alot of "soul searching" and while it is not all my fault, there are things I am accountable for. Since I can't change the past, I am working on the things I would like to change. am I doing any of it so he'll see it? Honestly, no. I don't think he'll be back. What I am looking at is who I want to be. Where I want to go and how best to get there. It's hard and (at the moment) incredibly lonely. Quick, hand me a staw and I'll suck it up.
