Time to check in--the days are going by so fast, and I haven't felt like I have much to say lately.
No changes in circumstances over the past few weeks. Everything's fine on the surface, although H did pull a wierd trick on me one night and was really cold and distant after I returned from a church meeting...it brought back a flood of scary feelings, but I managed to ride it out and make it through 'til morning, when he acted as if nothing was wrong. He never did tell me why he was so angry, even when I asked. He's rarely like that.
So, as far as I know, we're okay. Busy with life and kids and projects. I think sometimes that the busy-ness works as a distraction, keeping us from really looking at and addressing deep issues. Mostly I worry about it keeping *him* from thinking about and addressing his deep issues. But I realize that it is his road to walk, and he seems content to drift along in his current state.
I admit that I hope someday he'll face his demons instead of stuffing them. But I know that's not my choice to make. It's my job to love him and do the best I can.
