I haven't been on the boards posting because things have been very busy/crazy around here.
Financials of the seperation are sooo hard.Mentally and although My lawyer is a barracuda, I feel bad for h. He is going to loose it.
Some things H and i had a verbal agreement on, he had gone back on his word.
I guess I should have been wiser. I am now!
I hadn't talked or seen him in nearly 3 wks (opposite shifts) and when I called him this week I wanted to get together to write down the contents of the house and garage.
Things have gone missing and I know he was using them in his house to renovate, I wanted to make sure that some of it it came back. Well he came in from work and he asked if I wanted to get started.
I started to write down the things from the first floor. items and he lost it.
I talked very calmly and old him that when I was looking for some of the things in the garage, there was some things missing.
I also talked about how he changed some of the things on the financials and he said it was in case I wanted to screw him around.
I told him I wouldn't do that right from the start.
When I was telling him this it was really eerie the way he was looking at me.
We were looking right into each other's eyes and not waivering away. I did not cry or change into my usual avoidance stance and I think this really set him back.
He right away started to yell. He lost it.
When he came to load up for the second time I asked if he wanted cookie sheets, and other small stuff from the house.
no, no thanks, no
I felt so bad and I told him so. I also told him that it could have been so much easier.
God, I still love the jerk!
I also told him that I would pack up some other stuff in boxes for him.
My youngest son heard him spew and was pretty angry. He yelled for us to stop but h kept going. When H told him to help he said no.
There is no happiness right now here.
I bawled my eyes out not right when he left but about two hours later.
I know this needs to happen but it doesn't make it any easier
My heart is heavy
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"Sometimes in the winds of change, we find our true direction"
