FInally Snapped.

[Cinderellaman]

well, I told him that that I wished he would put our kid's safety first and that if in the future his seatbelt is not fixed he is welcome to use my car. He declined the car offer.

I was emotional
He was cold

I worry
He does not

My kids loved the ow, she was PERFECT, had thought of everything, and was kind a nice to them.

I know that I am still their mother, I have kept reminding myself for te past half hour.

But I really don't want to do this anymore, I want to run and hide from this [censored].
I am so hurt inside.
My kids love me, I know that, ow would never replace me in their eyes, I know that. BUT it hurts like hell.

However please know that I am greatful to ow for being like this to our kids.
At this point I think I like her better than I like my H.

I sit here crying, because after I asked H to be more responsible, he left me feeling as if I had asked something stupid of him, as if he had been responsible and I was over reacting. It hurts, like hell !

I don't want to go in the downward spiral again.

I can do this, please God help me do this !