[girlfromipanema]

I just got home from the nursery and bought some pretty flowers. I'm getting ready to plant them but had one more thought creep into my mind about how I'm feeling.

I feel like a damn fool. My H is a very private person and says he doesn't believe in sharing our personal business with others. I've also been very protective of him and never shared my feelings about the problems we had in our marriage with my friends. So, when "she" and I would go to lunch and she'd ask how things were with me and H, I'd say "better than ever" because I didn't feel comfortable sharing our business with someone close to both of us. Now I find out that he's been sharing our business with her all along... so she basically knew more about the status of my marriage than I did. What a fool I am...