Financials set to be sorted.

[ACJ]

So last night my friend and I thought we would try a different social club to the one where we met. For me it was a big disaster. Not sure she felt the same way but that's ok. It was probably a mistake to go together as the other people on the night out barely spoke to us. We went to a comedy club and as I ended up sitting on the end it was difficult for me to interact as once the comedians came on there was obviously no convo anyway. It was freezing in there and we never took out coats off all night. After the comedy had finished it was supposed to turn into a night club. It probably did but we didn't stick around long enough to find out. Most of the others on the event also left (without saying goodbye). I can honestly say that I have never met so many rude people all at once.

Today my S15 accused me of not having any time for fun! At this point in the day it was 2.30pm and he had just got up! I had been shopping, put the groceries away and was making a start on the evening meal and food to take to work tomorrow. So far today he has done nothing to help. They have all been off school for a week already. D17 has been working but all the other two have done is stay in bed til lunch time and then go out and see thier friends (or bring their friends back here, make a mess and not clear it up). Yes I know they are teenagers, I know they all behave like this but it really hurt for my S15 to tell me I didn't make time for fun and then in the next breath tell me it wasn't 'his job' to keep the house clean. AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH. Of course he immediately then rang H and asked him to do the same thing as he has asked me to do. I hadn't said I wouldn't do it, I just pointed out it was more likely to happen if he helped me free up some time by doing some of the jobs whilst I was at work so that I did have time to spend with him. H didn't commit to doing what he wanted any particular day (and as far as I know is back at work tomorrow) but I just hate it that he only has to do the fun things while I still have to try to bring them up to be responsible adults.

I'm missing being part of a couple. I'm missing being hugged. I'm missing someone taking care of ME for a change. I just want my family back together again but it seems I am the only one who does.