D9 just called that they were only now leaving the appt at the coast. I asked her about the seatbelt situation because one of H's seatbelts in the back is broken and he told me all would be fine and declined my offer to use my car when I offered it to him.
D9 told me that D7 was without a seatbelt all the way there. The trip is 1,5hours from here and they have to take the highway and H drives very fast. D9 said that ow would put her arm out so that D7 would not shoot to the front when H stepped on the brakes.
D9 said that ow would be driving because dad had had some drinks, and ow too for that matter. I was fuming, so I called H and asked him what was going on and that I could come and pick up the kids....I told him that I knew he and ow had had something to drink (alcohol) and that I would never forgive him if anything happened, especially since D7 was not in a seatbelt !
My emotion took over - I cried, and was so hurt inside, I ached that H did not have the responsible sense of taking care of his kids in the way that we used to see fit.
I offered again to come pick them up. He said no, and that all would be fine...I told him he had said that to me before and that now I found out that D7 had gone with him without a seatbelt.
I know now from all that has happened, that we DO NOT have CONTROL over anything that goes on besides our own actions, but with this I am angry and I feel he is not being responsible. He is not being a responsible parent.
He reacted to me, as if I was making a big deal out of nothing. He was patronizing and rude. Then he kept saying, I will take care of it, do not worry.
How does he think that I believe him ?
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
