Yesterday was such a bad day for me, I just cryed and cryed and cryed. I dont even know why it was so bad. I woke up and cryed and then I cryed at bowling on our last day of the season, and then I was crying all night with my friends that I hung out with. I came home early, because I was just emotionally drained and cryed some more.
I feel like I am losing so much hope right now and I dont know why. I dont even know how to respond to my H anymore, I feel like my love for him is slowly slipping away. I still love the old H, that I used to be with, but not what he has turned into.
I feel like he is out having a blast every night, partying with all sorts of new friends while I am stuck thinking about him and how he seems to be ruining our life together.
So much for my goals, of not crying, not talking about it with friends, and keeping my hope and love alive. All of those goals went strait out the window this weekend.
I was so sad last night, I felt like I just cant go through this anymore. I dont know where to go from here. I hate feeling so down and out. TIPPER
