I pray that God will guide me. I feel like I keep making things worse and in the long run it is my children who will suffer.
I gave my H what he wanted. I let him go. He is free to be with MOW. Yet, yesterday, I went out in the morning for a haircut and to run some errands. I must not have hear my phone but....3 missed calls from H. I call him back and he says "I guess you aren't taking my calls". Whatever.
Snodderly, is this what you previously told me about him seeing the gravy train pull away?
Anyway, I really am trying to look forward. I am still standng for my marriage, but I have to wonder if my H will ever turn the corner. He is a man so caught up in the past and past failures, that I don't see it happening. Funny, he wants everyone to forgive him easily for what he has done, but he can't forgive me or himself for the failure of our business.
When H and I talked last week and I told him that I hoped he found happiness, he said you have no idea what my life is like. If he is so unhappy being gone and is still gone,what chance is there for him to come home?
Anyway, MIL/FIL come back today from florida. H will no longer have the house to himself. S16 has increased his anger towards H with the new papers to sell the house and d13 is unhappy as well. I wish he would open his eyes and see what he is doing to our children.
Thanks Snodderly. I do plan on moving forward. I told H this and I hope it scared him, but who knows. It is all about the kids and I right now, since H is only concerned about himself (and MOW?).
