"I have a life" but I don't need to tell him about it.
It's great to read how you're reweaving a connection with your wife.
How do I handle the panic? He wants to give me NO reason for hope, his mind is made up, he's gone.
Getting a life is something I have to do. Right now it seems that my life is working on the divorce with the financial affidavits, packing up his clothes (very slowly) so it sinks in that he is not here and so he knows that I realize that. The kids are always foremost.
