Did you look at the video I posted on Kalni's post?
Very funny video.
Actually you must have a crystal ball because the video actually covers a few point that I was going to mention later cos I'm most likely to be very nervous if it ever happens. If W ever moved, 4 minutes would be impossible for me.
Honest R n B Song (for those of you wondering what we're talking about).
Got back from he kiddies party today D6 and I enjoyed ourselves, D6 gave W a run down of how her day went, a blow by blow account in 6 yo style. However W had an ambush planned for me or it seemed planned. She didn't ask me how my day was, she just jumped in with "was I missed by everyone" I replied "Well not really". Then W sprung her trap. "See, there you go no one missed me, if I was at the party they would all have totally ignored me". Well that led to a little argument between us, me in my position telling W she's missing the bigger picture and it should be all about the two of us standing together as a couple. W in her position still trying to reinforce her point that she gets ignored at family events involving my family and she's not going to attend anymore.
Well I'm a bit peed off with W cos she's trying to set a divide to avoid certain people who know of our sitch and she's not looking at how we move forward together and tackle all issues. If I was clueless and I didn't know where I was going with our R then I could understand her point. But I know that for us to be fully reconciled the two of us need to be a tight unit.
Well I'm just gonna sit back for a while and let my feelings ( full of emotion) settle down before we talk again.
As I said it was a planned ambush by W, so even if I had said that everyone missed her she would have had an answer ready or she wouldn't have believed me, but anyway I didn't dwell on it and no harm was done as you will later read. And by the way what a time to tell me to watch that video.
Women !! just when you think you're beginning to understand them, they throw something out to confirm that you don't. Last night at bedtime W and I were chatting, we didn't dwell on the earlier argument, we were more talking about W trying to regain her motivation for working out at the gym cos she's feeling fat at the moment. So we were talking about ways we could get to the gym together and where we could leave D6 when we did go.
At lights out we had a kiss and a cuddle and then out of the blue W asked if I wanted to ML. Hell yes !!! It's been more than 9 months since we last ML so although this was a surprise I wasn't going to say no. If you think back to that video (Honest R n B) I was nervous, nervous about satisfying her, and although she was moving a lot during our time ML, I did manage more that 7 minutes. However more that 7 minutes gave me too much time to think, I was wondering would W be doing anything different, would she want anything different from me, should I be working harder, I just kept thinking about that dam video. All this tension left me giving a below par performance and no end product, so I'm a bit more out of practice than I thought.
Anyway I don't think W was disappointed because after we ML she relaxed herself and slept next to me all night with no clothes on, that's not like her at all. This morning I wasn't going to get all giggy and talk about last night, maybe it was a momentary lapse for her, but it felt real enough for me. As I was leaving for work W mentioned that I looked smart and smelt nice, then she smiled and made a cryptic comment about me smelling nice last night. I just smiled back at her.
Well it's hard to describe how I feel now, it wasn't the electric connection I was thinking it would be, but it did feel good to feel close to her. I'm not sure about W but I sure we've just past a major milestone now.
Lanzo
Me:50 W: 49 T:20yrs M: 14 yrs D:11 2005 PA 2006: EA (2003 : 2007) 2007: April ILYBNILWY Aug PA, Sept Separate 2008: Feb Piecing 2009 Limbo 2011: Separated (same house) 2013: Divorcing
