(((((Essie))))) I'm sorry. I am guessing that you feel like crap because despite your best efforts, you did have expectations, and hey were not met! You probably don't even know what they were, or that you even had them. Also, I think that despite out best efforts, we all do get some of our feeling of self worth from what our spouses think of us, so it is hard to feel good when they seem indifferent at best!
No one but you gets to decide how long to wait, that is the power YOU have! For now, why not work on being an even better Essie (if that's possible) for YOU! See how you feel in a few weeks, or even months before you make any real decisions.
More hugs! It drives me crazy to see friends hurting!
