Just wanted to let you know, I was just thinking that you have and continue to teach me a lot about toughness, determination and unending love.
I know you are at an extremely low point right now. You have been getting 'slugged' for quite a while now. Plain & simple your motivation is and will continue to be your precious Grace. So throw your superhero suit in the laundry for freshening and fully and completely do your absolutest->(T-speak) at unwinding and decompressing. As we all do, I am sure you have some kind of mind/body occupying type of thing that you can take safe refuge in.
I hope your string of rotten days is going to be changing here real quick. I'll pray for that.
You are a great man & an exceptional Dad. You are standing firm for what matters & I know you will continue to do just that w/ help from almighty God.