I agree with Lisa! I'm jealous too! My BF hasnt initiated any R or even personal talk about me, since the bomb!! And any talks we had since, I bought up and that all ended 22 December. You have a massive advantage here... she cries, she tells you she cant imagine life without you..shes in MC with you..
Anyway, knowing your sitch, I think I can remember some more positive baby steps...
- She emailed you after a MC session to ask your feedback - she emailed you before her trip and clearly wanted to fit in a talk or visit with yuo before she left (her idea!) - she emailed (phoned?) you to offload about work stuff and ask your advice and hence "turned to you" for help in this area - she emailed you (phoned?) to tell you she was excited to see your name on the bottom of something at work (like she was proud for you!) - she said you were in the top 95 percentile of men (OH MY GOD!) - she thanked you for a nice evening in the car when you dropped her off then asked you if you were ok
um, cant remember any more...but reread your own sitch and dig them out, as I am sure theres been tonnes! And it is a big deal she is still going to MC and wants to be reminded of the next session by email...her claiming shes only going to break up with you is peverse (and possibly a fib !)
Try not to dwell on her and men and alchohol...considering the stresed out confused weepy state shes in right now, being a woman, I can tell you...any encounter or fling she may have (MAY!) would leave her feeling empty hollow and even more sad. I bet. Shes 43, shes in MLC, shes not in the mood for romance. So put it out of your mind! Dont picture her with some guy, picture her sat in a crummy hotel room, picking at a suspicious stain on her bedspread and feeling lost and lonely... there see, thats better!
Enjoy your mini hike! (is that like twice round the carpark or something!?). Thinking of you, us English girls will look after you!
Ali xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread