I had an interesting day today. Rehearsal, I was so distracted today & had a hard time concentrating and missed 2 of my cues. My son S14 started working as backstage crew today & said my dancing is OK but I am the worst actor (out of everyone)! I need to work on that I guess!
Then I came home H was watching my D today and I mowed the grass. I am embarrassed to admit that I haven't done that ever before! I always let H do it, but I am trying to be really self-sufficient and independent now, so did that (and I am so tired) after that and the dancing & acting .
Then I went grocery shopping with the kids. We took so long about 2 hours or a little more (we always take a long time though b/c the kids want to look at toys and stuff like that) that H apparently got worried and said he was about to leave the house and start driving looking for us thinking we might have been in an accident or something. I am sure he was worried about the kids though not me!!!
Then I made dinner, just hamburgers and H decided he would eat with us. He even said thank you and they were good after which is amazing.
H and I also exchanged a few emails today talking about the past. I said I hadn't realized how hard mowing was and I used to give him a hard time when he would only mow half, but now I realize why he did that! and I apologized.
He also said he was upset that I said he didn't see the kids much which I said to his sister (& he listened to our conversation) after he asked for a divorce/told me about OW (although he emailed I said he never saw the kids which I have never said.
I told him that he had told the therapist in front of me that he had worked extra when he didn't have to to avoid me (and he of course wound up not seeing the kids then also). He also was running a lot, going out every Thursday night, and seeing and texting his girlfriend. He was gone at least 70 hours a week and obviously not good for a R. I reminded him of that and did say I didn't blame him for that b/c I was pretty miserable and depressed at the time and it probably wasn't any fun hanging around me. I said I see things differently now that I am no longer depressed & hope someday he will also. (Very anti- DB of me I know, but just had to do it.)
So that was my day. I still want to work out and clean the house and then I will pass out!!! Karen
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