THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR CHECKING IN ON ME!!!!! I am still alive!! Just feeling sad still. It's been an even more difficult week since I knew ex H and ow were on the beach in Mexico!!!! I was extra mad that it appeared that D17 didn't know where they were. As it turned out SHE knew--she was just trying to protect ME!
Saw him today for the first time since the D! I told him he needed to call before he came over!!!! Did a little venting and I told him I just wasn't ready to act like nothing was wrong! He changed the subject and talked about buying a car for D17. I totally disagree with buying it now--he had mentioned buying one later if she worked harder in school. He wants to buy it now, but make ME put the restrictions on the use of it. He can be the hero; I can be mean ol' Mom!
Later, I sent him an email and said I just wish that one day he would admit that we both had a role in this divorce (I really wanted him to admit it was ALL HIS FAULT, but I didn't say that). I have felt all along that he put all the blame on ME(since I "refused" to clean the house to his standards, thus not "respecting" him...or something like that. I told him again that a messy house would never equal having an ow!!! I did get an email back saying we both had a part. He also apologized for his part!!! NOW maybe I can move on a bit easier!
