Its been nine long months ( with no contact from W or D ) since I last posted at D-Busting if only because I've had no success and would not wish to dissuade others in the hope that their M's could be saved. Dispite continued GAL activitiesw ( ballroom dance, learning guitar, cycling and even a new career ) aswell as PMA through cognative therapy, stbxw has still not glanced in my direction. Even efforts to reach out to D17 have proven unsuccessful. In two weeks we will attend family court for a case conference brief to begin the final phase of dissolving our M. Obviously, at this point I believe W has made her intentions perfectly clear and I certainly have no illusion that the M we had can be repaired. I am prepared and have began to move on with my life and am even beginning to believe that happiness in other R's is possible. However, having said all of that, I remember all of the reasons that I fell in love with her and the potential we had as a family. I'm saddened by the thought that I will not get to see my W grow old nor all of the milestones of D's life. Therefore I am reluctant to let them go if even the slightest hope to begin a new R somehow exists.
So, in the 11th hour I've returned to DBing for some perspective from others on my sitch or perhaps a little encouragement to push me over this final hurdle.
P.S. - W will be here tomorrow ( me, asked not to be here ) for an inventory of property and is having a birthday in 1 wk. - opportunity or illusion?
