H called yesterday evening to speak about May and how we're going to arrange things. I couldn't talk to him because I had a friend over. He asked if I can call him next day. Where should I call? He says Our loft, OF COURSE ! As if he never moved in with OW.
Today I called him. He acted as if we didn't communicate for years! He called me "honey" and my pet name. He said "please don't leave me, ILY. I don't know why did I do it, I wanted something but now I'm not sure what it was. I want to end it with OW but don't know how." I said, do it when you're ready, I don't want to push you. He said, you're not pushing me at all and OMG, I'm ready RIGHT NOW. I just don't know how.
In short, he said everything I wanted to hear so badly!
Unfortunately he was dead drunk too...
I said I love him and alwsays will and will wait as long as it takes. Figured it's safe, he will not remember a thing anyway.
I don't know wehat to think of it! Are we there yet? I cried when I hung up and I still do. For months I was hoping, waiting and now it's happening. Is it real? Or is it just alcohol speaking? He was a moderate drinker before MLC and I don't really know what to expect from him when he's drunk!
I don't want to get my hopes high again and I'm afraid to lose the moment I was waiting for. How am I to act?
Would appreciate any thoughts!
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
