My thoughts are with you, Phoenix! Let us know how you are doing.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Weekend from He**. Details under the radar. Essentially, most of everything I suspected was on the money. Of course that brought on the event we all fear. So where do you go from there. Trying to figure out our path from here and still operate. This is probably going to be short since I'm at work and need to still function for the rest of the day. I find myself in the land between sad, relieved and anxious.
A friend made the comment today that this thing has been eating at me for years and that I don't know who I am any more, I have just been focused on how to solve this problem. He was right. Bad DBing? Not sure.
I find myself in the land between sad, relieved and anxious.
Time will help. I know you've hung in there a long time to keep your M and family together. We resist change, but sometimes it's a relief once it is finally rolling and we know what the factors are we have to deal with.
You know what else? it's okay for you to have all those feelings, to reach out for support, to be sad and scared and cry. Don't stuff those feelings, let them process.
Protect yourself, protect your kids.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
It was nice to have comments from some friends and family complimenting me on how much effort I have put into trying to turn this around. Some times I feel it's not quite over yet, but I don't know of much else to do. So I stick to the basics and hold on for the ride. I still check in daily to see how my friends here are doing.
Hey! I think we're both up waaayyy too late! (My hubby is in OR and I thought I would check out the bb.) I think of you everyday, Phoenix! You've done more than most, and I suspect you would do even more, if there was just a small possibility it would save your M. You are a good man ... always remember that.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Hey there guy--it's nice to see you around again! I know the wait for the proverbial shoe is excruciating, but you have the right idea.
Your stewardship is to do the best you can to do what you feel is right. Her choice is hers to make--out of your control. Give those kiddos lots of love and try to take it easy...let us know how it's going.
My kids have been gone less than 24hrs and S11 has text me 3 times and called me 4 (all from W's phone). Puts a smile on my face knowing they need me that much. Also some text from W are a good feeling too. Although I'm not happy with where things are headed, I am at piece with what I have and am doing.
This whole DB process was definately the right way to go.
Spring break. Daddy's dream, to have the lifestyle of his W and kids. Hoping only good contacts are made on this trip. It has been quite and peaceful for me though. When there is only one person at home it is very easy to keep it clean. Maybe I'll leave a few things on the floor just to keep things "homey".
(My hubby is in OR and I thought I would check out the bb.) I think of you everyday, Phoenix! You've done more than most, and I suspect you would do even more, if there was just a small possibility it would save your M. You are a good man ... always remember that. 
