Well, I haven't responded to W's e-mails as of yet. I'll get to them sometime this weekend. When, I'm not sure, but I will respond to her, especially since she was being nice (for once) in one of her exchanges. However, I'll be sure to keep things at a very minimum and let her know as little as necessary.
Ok, last night around 10 I get this random text from W:
Quote:
Not as happy as I am without you.
That was it. That is the only thing that came through and I hadn't sent anything. I don't know what spurred her to send it, but it stung and hurt nonetheless.
W seems to keep baiting and baiting me at every turn. I didn't reply and I won't take her bait, but the fact she is still so angry and so mean is very difficult to take.
I want to keep DBing, but man, is it tough. The DR book says believe nothing of what you read and 50% of what you hear (or is it the other way around?), but it is very hard to callous yourself to this type of communication.
I will be dropping off D to her later this afternoon, so I'll need to be sure I'm clean-shaven, dressed up a bit, and cheerful. I'll have to do my best acting job b/c I really want to see her and have her be nice to me. I'll need to make sure I'm acting "as if" she's glad to see me too.
Big hurdle to clear today. I'll see if I can pull it off, and let you know.
