Gypsy!! And you as well. You amaze me with your strength and your ability to push through the pain. Still working on that here.
Journaling:
I am taking the girls to FIL's 80th birthday party today. We won't stay long, I am doing it for the girls. H is working. He said he understood either way (if I wanted to go or not). Keep in mind, H has only told FIL about us and asked him to keep his confidence, so as far as I know, no one else knows. I won't be starting any conversations today, as its not the time, and there will be over 50 people there.
Then, we are going swimming and to mass. Fun day planned here.
H got tears in his eyes last night saying goodnight/goodbye to D3. I didn't make eye contact, just kept busy. Also caught him checking me out. I had to change in front of him (he walked in the room) and was shocked "Are you tanning?" (yes, I am, won 10 free tans lol). I said "Yep, long story, free tans...." as if this kind of stuff goes on all the time. He stammered "I..you...you never tan...well...I mean...it looks good, its just not like you". Kept busy once again.
Next week, H is throwing himself a birthday party at his favorite bar. I was invited, but declined, of course. I am pretty sure a new girl will be there to help him blow his candles out. It will be hard to not be involved in his birthday party (he is coming the next day to celebrate with the girls, we will have cake/light hearted presents). I have made plans so I won't see him the day of his party.
Pushing through the days.......enjoying what I have and working through what has changed.....
