Jen, I relate SO much to your sitch. I don't know how spiritual you are, but a book that is REALLY helping me is Joel Osteen's "You Best Life Now". I have been listening to the book on CD and have come to some MAJOR realizations. I think it might help you too. I have journaled about it in my thread. You can check that out too if you want. I think you and I are in the same boat as far as trying to hold on too tightly.
