Random thoughts: I was thinking yesterday about how far I've come in the past year, and how much I've seen H change also. His changes are what keep me hanging on. I also laughed when I thought of how I used to post every single detail of our interactions--it was such a lifeline for me to journal here. I saw someone mention that a lot of old threads are gone, and I'm about to check that out--wish I'd printed all of mine before now. But if they're gone, oh well. Maybe it's a reminder that we shouldn't hang on to the past too tightly.
Oh my, I remember those days too! I have so many threads b/c I just posted every single thing that happened and that I felt/thought. It was necessary at the time, but for a while now, I haven't bothered, and it's nice to not feel that it's necessary for my sanity.
I like the way you look at the possible loss of the threads: we shouldn't hold on to the past too tightly. It is tempting sometimes, but unhealthy. I have been remembering the bad times b/t X and me, but that's no better than remembering only the good times.
I am really pleased to hear that you are happy with your personal growth. As you posted on my thread, we just have to go with the flow, ha ha ha! I wonder if all teachers have a streak of control freak in them - do you?
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