Well, I posted this in Marcum's thread, but I guess it's a mini-update... H hasn't moved back home. We haven't gone to MC, or anything. He came over the day before Sat, and was a complete ass to me in front of my family. Then, got mad and decided not to spend Easter with us at his g'mas house. Guess who he's hurting...not me, he's hurting his kids. He pulled this at Thanksgiving, Christmas, and now Easter. I should have known. Then, he comes over all sweet on Mon., gets action from me, and then leaves...nice.
I'm pretty much pissed at this point, and trying to avoid him before I regret all the things I have to say to him.
And I've thought about the questions re what qualities he has that makes me WANT to love him...I'm drawing a blank here. I don't WANT to love him...he's not loveable. Now, the simple fact that I made vows to him, and have told him I will love him forever...that's got to count for something, right? But, when this person makes themselves IMPOSSIBLE to love, what then?? Do I endure what I would consider emotional abuse because I've made vows?
Me 36 Husband 35 D5 S2 separated: 10/29/07-present Served divorce papers 1/22/09 "When the world gives out beneath your feet, it is time to learn how to fly."
