Thanks for the response. Wanted to address some of the key questions you asked.
1. I'm not gay, I never had any interest in any guy. 2. Arranged marriage is common in our culture, but I wanted to spend some time to gain some feelings before I could decide on the key issue. Unfortunately I had just started a new job and required me to be back and thus we got married while I would in the US and she out of states. 3. I can't say that I would have chosen her or not on my own. I just had a very different picture in my mind. 4. I think I started watching porn more after marriage because of just being frustrated with things not going anywhere. 5. I am seeking personal counselling. She knows that but I feel she has given up on us. 6. I guess the scary part is being single. I know it's better to be single then in frustrated relationship. But I have never stopped her, she is her own boss. I just wanted us to be happy, either ways. I just don't want to be hurt or hurt her. I wish I knew what I know now and I would have never committed. 7. One thing I noticed during our engagement it was very difficult for me to focus on us. I would feel suffocated could be because she was so far away and I felt we didn't had too many things in common. She was quite adamant that it was our distance that was causing issues. Anyways, its done and over. I just want some resolution and help so that we both can carry on a healthy life. I'm willing to go any distance to make this marriage a success. I've given up porn for the longest time and just focused on how to make this work. Any response would be appreciated.
