Wondering if my situation is common

[water2moon]

CRS, I have a question if you don't mind..a couple really..One , what kind of secrets did you hold onto that made you go back again? And what was it really about the second time you were cuaght that kept you from having the affair again? My H told me three times it was over and went back each time. The 3rd time I found out I packed his stuff into garbage bags and threw him out..2 days later he was back home crying and begging me to give our family another chance..But now I am so afraid to trust him again. He swears that this time its different and he knows now that he does not want a life with OW. But Everyday I live in fear that this will happen again and it's killing me. And one more question if you don't mind, this one is very personal so I understand if you can't answer it but did you feel that you loved the OW more than your W at the time? I'm also afraid that he'll never love me again becasue he can't get over her.