Thank you all for your positive feedback.. I wanted to feel good about the text but as I said that "no matter what" kind of was preventing me so I'm happy that you all think it's positive...
Well, after what happened today I know it was positive. Let me explain.
Today was my last day at work. I quit my job. It was contributing to the downfall of my marriage because I wasn't very happy there and had turned into a very sad, maybe even depressed person prior to the bomb.
I had anticipated a "latte" with my H as he had said that he would treat me to one on my last day.. well, I know what you're likely thinking.. "no expectations".. Well wouldn't you know it. I don't get a latte and I don't even get any contact at all acknowledging that it's my last day. I will admit that I was disappointed in the latte.. because I would have liked to see him.. and I love Starbuck's Vanilla Latte.. but the not contacting by way of an email or text didn't make me sad or angry.. moreso surprised I think... I was really busy today anyway.
So I wrap up my last day at work.. which I have to say doesn't feel real at all.. and make my way to get D2 and get home.
I check on the BB briefly.. I think I managed to do a couple of quick posts and then something happened to my wireless internet.. I couldn't get on. Hmm. Figured I'd look into it after D2 goes to bed.
The phone rings. I didn't answer.. it was prime time for telemarketing and likely too early for H to be calling. The caller didn't leave a message. An hour or hour and a half later I was downstairs in the laundry room doing laundry. Come back upstairs and I've got a message.. it's from H. Telling me how crazy his day was.. asking if I got his email.. hoped that my last day was good and apologizing for not getting the latte. He also asked about plans for tomorrow if he could see D2 and I.
So I called him back... and while on the phone tried to retrieve his email.. but was not able to do to my internet being down. So he read his email to me and it's AWESOME.. so I've been frantically trying to get the wireless internet working again so that I could read it with my own two eyes and so that I can share it with all of you.. so here is his email to me.
"Hi there unemployed hot stuff! How does it feel to be so rich that you don't have to work for at least the summer months?
Hope you had a great day. My day has been hectic and full of power meetings and I didn't get a chance to come and share that latte. That will be tomorrow if youre around. I would love to come up and hang with you girls for the day.
Let me know
Love me"
I'm am feeling so good right now. Also in our telephone conversation he made reference to him getting a modem for his apartment.. so it's obvious that he doesn't plan on coming home for a while yet.. but we are really starting to move through "friendship" mode I think.. My responsibility now is to take these steps and treasure them.. and do my darndest not to expect anything more!!
Anyway, thank you for being here to share in the good times and the bad with me. You guys are the best and I'm so grateful for your support and friendship!
