Thanks Snodderly: I am so happy you found me. I so value your advice and your kind words. I would not have made it this far (almost 2 yrs) without you.
I am totally with you. I have really cut him short this week. He keeps calling me at work or early evening at home for trivial things. Where is d13's practice (hello....she can tell you); where do you want me to leave you a check(never asked before). Whatever. I am keeping my answers and conversations short and brief. Not angry just a little chilled.
I want H to see exactly what life will be without me. I think he thinks nothing will change if he d's me. I think he is in total lala land.
Snodderly, my H is so lost in past mistakes and failures, that I don't think he will ever get past it to see what he lost. What he is doing to his children, gifts from God, is so incredibly selfish and said.
I just don't know why, if he is so intent on being out there on his own, free from me and the responsibilities of family life, does he not just leave me be.....why does he call about stupid things, why does he care how I feel about him.
His own self-loathing will be the end of him. It will not only destroy him but all of his relationships. I have to wonder if the counseling he is in can even help. The man does not know how to love or forgive. I used to think he would return......I am not so sure now.
SO is this the end of the line for my marriage or just another boulder blocking the exit of the MLC tunnel? Who knows? All I know is I have the kids, their love and respect, and good times ahead.
Thanks for letting me vent. Thanks for finding me.
