I'm sorry for the hard time you're having now. Of course this still hurts....don't feel badly about that. And, unfortunately there is no quick and easy fix to the pain ( how I prayed for that!).
I loved your first post. I'm so proud of you and how far you've come. I'm proud of the sincere and honest effort for you to move forward in your own life, and interest in it as well. Not just GAL...it goes much beyond that.
I will say this. The pain. So many days I SWORE that it would never go away. I could never imagine it. I thought the day that I would be "over" so much, when things didn't hurt anymore, when I could honestly look forward with no desire for the past....was a dream. It seemed impossible.
But, a dear friend of mine put it the best. The time when you just accept the pain, the hurt, the sadness as a part of you for now, is when it starts to let go of you, little by little. And, it worked.
It falls away from you in pieces, almost imperceptable. Until one day, you're sitting enjoying the sunshine of your life, and something little will remind you of the past. And, you'll find that it doesn't bring you much pain at all, maybe a twinge because of sentiment. It doesn't bring you anger, passion, or any care at all. It just is. And, you'll be amazed at how you got to that place.
Look how far you have come forward and upward. This too shall pass.
