Tonight I am working at the location where I spent the last time with the OW, I have asked my W to come by and see me, check on me, or just drive by to see that I am tlelling the truth about where I am. We'll have to wait and see if she takes me up on it.
Last night the W went out with her best friend, who she says she is not telling what happened, not sure if she did or not. When she got home I tried to initiate physical contact, she declined, but smiled a sly smile the whole time.
She still wants to know where I am and when I will be home, which I think is encouraging. She also asks where I am moving to, discouraging. Because of her recent actions, staying out until all hours of the night, I have told her I am not leaving until she gets herself squared away with her actions. Is this reasonable?
We are now walking in each others shoes, she is having an A, and I am feeling the pain. My C says this is a normal process for some couples, and I think I read in either DB or STM that it could be part of the healing process. I don't feel I can fault her for what she is doing, but it HURTS so badly that I can barely function.
When I close my eyes I see her with another man, but when I'm awake I just think of ways to try and stop her from leaving. I even think I had a panic/anxiety attack yesterday while she was at work.
I would really like to hear from some one who has survived an A in the way I described. From what I have read most M's come out stronger from the actions my wife is taking. Could this be true?
