Bring on the Rain

[SueS]

Hello!

H's family left. My SIL talked to me about coming down to visit. She openly talked about it as if it would just be me & D3. That's fine. I had to go home to be with D3 so they could leave. She and I baked cupcakes for school today. They'll celebrate her b-day this afternoon during snack. She'll be the Princess for the day! She wasn't feeling well, but looked better when I talked to her about school.

Okay, still not sure what's happening with D3. I asked H to talk to daycare and he's giving me a major attitude. It's his responsibility, yet he wants no part of having to do the leg work. No, I do not want my child gone for 2 weeks. H mentioned just a week and I'd do better with that. I have things outside the office to do today and told H to call back to daycare. The Director was there this morning, but H was "running late" and he didn't talk to her. WTH? Told him I'd emailed him this morning to say I wouldn't be in the office so he'd have to handle it. I got "Whatever" from him and he hung up. I'm sure he'll call me later and ask me if I've talked to her.

Rob, as far as our finances, they're pretty split up right now. We each use a separate checking account. My H works for a bank. When he got that job, he opened an account, always telling me that we should open an account there but never following through. He did a lot of things financially that did not include me, which tends to add to my thoughts that he's been planning for a long time to end our M and my thoughts that his current A is an Exit A. Anyway, we no longer have joint credit cards either. We'd paid off and closed all of them a long time ago. He started opening his own new cards. I believe he has 4. I, in turn, opened 2 (very small limit) cards on my own for emergencies because he wouldn't put my name of any of his. Nor would he add me to the checking account. And then he wonders why I became so guarded with my feelings the past year! The only thing that we have together is the vehicle I drive. He wants no part of that. I pay that expense each month, along with our insurance. Oh, and I know he opened another account at a credit union here. He has NO idea that I'm aware of that account.

You know, I know times will be tough and this whole transition to being by myself will be hard. Goodness knows I have NO idea what it will truly be like to have H gone. But I've also had one of these "Let's just get this over with" kind of attitudes the past week. I've cried a few times, but the bigger an a$$ H is to me, the easier this gets. D3 told my parents last night.....Guess what my daddy did? He laid on me....kind of hurt too....I cried. They knew about what had happened. My mom just kind of changed the subject (H was not around).

Well, time for more work. I'm also meeting my parents for lunch!

Hi Sheila. Did you get my ecard? Check your email.

Thanks everyone.