Made it until Thursday before seeing W again. Four days apart with minimal contact. That was rough, but it really helped me feel like I could get along just fine without her.
She stopped by last night to get her mail and we ended up going out to dinner. It was a good time. We didn't have any R talks, we just enjoyed eachother's company. I liked spending time with her, but it made me miss her again. I think she feels the same way. She had been invited out to dinner by her GF but said she wasn't planning on going. When I mentioned I was heading out to get dinner she didn't hesitate to come along with me.
She's got to be confused about life. She likes spending time with me and OM. I can tell that by me becoming less available she misses me more. I also fear that this opens the door wide for her and OM to get more serious. I already told her where I stand on this issue though so I have to follow through. It's just hard
I'm not sure what to do. When I see her I miss her... when I don't see her I resent her. Neither of these are feelings I want to have.
